we're really moving.

I believe the initial form of excitement (if you can even call it that), and somewhat of a denial I had during the holidays is over. i do have to start by saying that i know we are making a good decision, and that we are very lucky, etc... because it's true.
even though it's a good thing, a little bit of panic is starting to set in.
we are MOVING TO NORTH DAKOTA!!
I haven't been able to sleep.
Who moves there? Seriously. I can honestly say, that NEVER in my lifetime did I think I would be moving there.
And leaving here!
Ah, we had such a good summer.
Finally, finally, some close friends who were, and are so good to me. Playing at Cherry Hill whenever we wanted to. Swimming in our pool. Hoping in the car and driving 15 minutes to grandma's when we were bored. Paces. Family. Living by my cute sister in law. and sweet Lucy who LOVES her friends- not to mention her favorite person in the whole world, her cousin Blake!
Cute Amy & Luke had us over for dinner tonight, and our cute girls played so good the whole time. It's so not fair that we are moving!
I'm really so sad for Lucy-- she asks to go to Grandma Carrie's, or 'Bonnie's' (for some reason she is just Bonnie now- so funny!) almost everyday, and gets so excited to play with her friends.
That's what made me so sad about living in Orem was Lucy not having any friends, and here she has such great little friends, and we are moving the barren desolate waste land.
Poor little girl, she is so social, and we will be all alone.

I mentioned before that I'm reading 'The Happiness Project', so I was asking Tyler what he thought made me the happiest. He thought a little and said- Us (meaning Tyler, Lucy, and Clara- of course!), Cheerleading, shopping, and hanging out with my mom. I know those aren't the only things that make me happy, but none of those last 3 are in north dakota!
(and I'm really not that shallow that shopping makes me the happiest... but you know.... a girl can love to shop right?)

I'm a little frightened, worried, anxious, and dreading our move as of now. I know it will be good, but I'm just so nervous we won't have any friends, we'll be bored to death, and I'll go crazy because we won't know any babysitters and my kids might start to drive me crazy! Even thought I love them to death... sweetest little girls ever. But a mom needs a break every once in a while, ok?

I'm excited for our new adventure, but tonight my heart is breaking a little. Well, a lot. I'm really really going to miss home.
I'm so sad to leave our friends and family.

Wish us luck- Tyler leaves on Monday!

 Lucy at her friend Macie's 3rd Birthday Party!

I can't believe she is old enough to just get dropped off for a party! What?!

I'm so sad we won't be here to have her 3rd Birthday- I think we'll have a party before we move! She just loves her friends!

Uncle Kyle with the Brock grandkids- they are all so cute!